Pfff

Well, another night alone. Some times this is all that I have. I don’t know how describe it, is just that feeling that you have on your chest. Is more than a feeling I guess. In nights like this I understand why the people say “Goodbye World”. Hahaha I’m joking.

But, why I feel this way? So sad. This is how you feel when you are losing someone? When the people who you love left you behind? This night is raining. For first time in my life I can see it. Maybe, just maybe, you’re not too far. It’s not just a dream. Be with you, touch you, feel your breathe on my face. Our bodies together, how sweet it could be.

Some people say that I’m wasting my time. That love is only flesh and all that I have is just a bad dream. That I’m losing myself in my own dirty love history, but they’re wrong. Is not that easy, no for me.

This, my illusions, they cheer me up. They give me hopes. Either way, at the end everybody believe in something, they call it “love”, “God”, “Christ”… I call it “babe”.

Someday I’ll fall on his brown eyes. Maybe is not the first time that I feel this, this “love”, but is the first time that is real. Now, I’m taken and it feels so right. Makes my heart beat faster and faster every time I hear his voice. Even when all that he have to say is one “I love you”. With just three words he put my heart on the sky.

I know that maybe I’m not the one, that I’m not pretty or special. But my love is all that I can give to him. Is all that I have.

“Excuse me; I’m boring you with this”. A phrase that I know so well, a “cliché”, but is perfect this time. This is what I really feel, words blowing up.

You’re asking your self “Why she writes this?” Not for pity, that’s sure. Is just a escape, my own little world behind this letters. I’m in love, I feel like a little girl again. He’s mine and he always will be. I belong to him, all me. Even when I feel that I’m just a ghost, another little part of his world.

I had made stupid things, just like when I freak out to my best friend with idiotic questions like: “He loves me right?” Haha, sorry for that.

This was a very long night, was bored, I know. Here are the 4:08 am. I’m breathing deeper but I feel okay.